I know NaNoWriMo is over :/ I thought I had answered your question earlier, but I guess not. Well, I would say that no one should force you to do NaNo. And you should write, or not write. Get inspiration from things, read lots of books! That what helped my writing too, as I read I would pick up grammar and where you place the “she said” and how many times words should appear where. But everyone’s writing is awful before editing. Just please remember that it’s just a rough draft and you can always fix things though it may be irritating.
I hope you continue to write! <3
Well, to be honest I don’t really have much to say about it really. I’m not sure to make of it. Sorry :/